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i do have happy news! but im saving the best for last.
Its been one week and one day since Crybaby has been missing. I went driving all over my neighborhood yesterday and couldnt see him anywhere on the side of the roads or anything. I visited the shelter and put up a sign there. They said they havent picked up any deceased cats, so thats good. But this isnt like him at all. No one would be able to keep him inside for long. and he would come home if he could. atleast to grab something to eat. but nothing. Ive been crying alot, but today has been a little easier. I dont know if its because im accepting the fact that he probably isnt coming home. Im still holding on to the possibility that he is still alive and will make it back. Cats can be disloyal like that. But Im starting to think more and more that he is gone. it breaks my heart! i miss all of his obnoxious behavior. Even my husband does, and he couldnt stand crybaby.

kaiden had his 6 month appt the other day. He is 15lbs 14ozs. He dropped from 50% to 25% which isnt bad. but since that normally doesnt happen til they are more active, his ped is going to do a weight check on him in 1 month. She said it could be from his diahrea catching up to him. which doesnt surprise me, lol. Ive been giving him oatmeal cereal the past 4 days and its been terrible, just like the rice. His tummy has been hurting him with severe gas. He has been sleeping so crappy and each night has been worse. so his ped said to give him a month and try again. It doesnt surprise her because he has been showing that his intestines are immature for his age. when i keep to my bland diet and he is just bfing, things are much more tolerable for both of us. but i have to say im getting sick of not being able to eat whatever i want. overall he is pretty healthy and very strong!
Yesterday he accomplished his newest milestone! He was sitting next to the coffee table and managed to pull himself all the way up to standing! it was so cute! He did it twice and hubby was there to see! he loved it.
<-- there is a pic, sorry its blurry, i got it right before he fell, lol.
Kaiden cant just sit and play anymore. Now he has to try and crawl everywhere, which then gets him mad, lol.

So we went to Mommys group last night. I was so glad to be able to make it again finally! I brought Ethan and Kaiden. It was alot of fun! I felt much more comfortable this time. It was so nice to be around adults having adult conversations. lol, after spending all day with kids its nice to be around adults. Its a whole other language. Ethans girlfriend was there, lol. Her name is Gwen, they get along really well and are so sweet. They were holding hands, it was just adorable. Kaiden just loved playing with all the babies. I meant to bring my camera, but forgot :( All the babies, generally the same age, were sitting on a blankie playing with all the toys. it was so cute watching them take toys from eachother and grab eachother. At one point I was looking at Nikki (Jennifers handsome little boy) and saw that he had a new binki, just like Kaidens, I thought it was so funny that they both had the same binky clip and binky. But as I looked closer I saw another one hanging there, then looked at Kaidens, and saw that he didnt have his, lol. Nikki snatched it and was sucking away. I just thought it was so cute. They slobber on eachothers toys, so why not suck eachothers binkys? lol. Kaiden had so much fun, he just played the whole time, barely wanted anything to do with me, it was nice! I cant get him to do that at home. At home all he wants is me.

Ethan has been doing good at school. He had a good week. The last two days he did great and kept his hands to himself the whole time! I am very happy!

If you have read this far, good job! I tend to write alot because I want to get everything down, so I can read back on all of these memories later.