Crybaby is still missing. Today is day 11 :( I don't think he is making it back. none of it makes sense. Im not ready to completely give up hope. Hubby said we should get a box together of a picture of him and some of his things, and bury it, as our way to say good bye. But I just cried and cried. I cant quite do that yet, im not ready to say goodbye completely. Im still hoping he surprises the hell out of me and shows up at our door someday. I cry off and on all day. I hold the tears back most of the time, but then the flood gates open. Then I think im all dry and wont be able to cry any more, but im wrong each time. I miss him so much!

on to some better news, we got another cat. Its the kind of cat hubby has always wanted, very colorful and very lovey. Her and Ethan bonded instantly. she cuddles with all of us all the time. and she lets kaiden grab a hold of her. he giggles, its so cute. She of course doesnt replace crybaby, no cat ever will, and she hasnt made the grieving any easier, but she does bring me some joy. she is mainly hubby and ethans kitty. she is 2-3 yrs old.

I saw Ethan trace his first letter the other day! On friday, march 10th. He drew a picture and tried giving it to another girl in his class, but she pushed it to the ground. He was so heartbroken, and so was I! I got teary eyed, lol. so he sat where it fell and had his marker, and traced the letter Y like it was nothing! I was so proud! Then he gave it back to her, and she took it. But when her back was turned, I took it back and put a different one in front of her, lol. I know, terrible, but I wanted that paper for records!

I got a Moby Wrap. well I made one myself. At mommy group I saw another mommy put one on, and it looked so easy and so comfy!! I asked how much, and it was $40!! But Jennifer (another wonderful mommy) gave me the great idea of just buying 6 yrds of stretchy fabric! So thats what I did and only 14$ later I have a moby wrap, and Kaiden LOVES it, and I love it, its so comfy, it doesnt put pressure on just one shoulder, like ive had trouble with with the sling. Im very happy with it!

Today is a lazy monday, doing some cleaning but not much else. Im going to have Jennifer and her wonderful family over for dinner tomorrow :) Im really looking forward to it!